Wednesday, 29 October 2014
It was a seemingly small step, but I was so excited about it. For a start, more people than I had expected wanted to come along and find out about it. The session seemed to go down well with those who had come along, and crucially, they want more! I taught a series of activities based on focusing and visualisation, and ended with a relaxing meditation. I got some appreciative feedback, for which I am grateful for. It was a great session!
You see, I believe my role in nursing goes much deeper than the clinical everyday nursing stuff - this is important, don't get me wrong. But I want to weave the deeper stuff into my work, and I believe that others can do this, too, and have a positive influence not just on themselves or their patients, but within the department they work. I am full of ideas about how I can bring my clinical practice and my mindfulness into alignment, and use accordingly - and I am chomping at the bit to get it going!
The deepest thread amongst everything I do as a nurse (and in life) is to form a connection with others, and teach them to do the same, but also connect with themselves. I feel that our own inner voices often sabotage our good deeds to ourselves, and if that's happening on an internal level, it is being reflected externally, as well. At the centre of everything, the most important things to remember, are that we love ourselves, we are gentle with ourselves, and we forgive ourselves. If we can turn down the white noise, the noise that jeopardizes these kind and essential deeds, then we can start to influence others in the same way. What happens after that is connection, fulfilment and joy. A crazy, hippy ideology, maybe - but who says we can't try?!
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Sunday, 26 October 2014
But I've also had some profoundly positive experiences going on, this week. The timing has been impeccable. Just at the point when I was beginning to wonder how I was going to continue to pull myself onward in my new life, brilliant gifts appeared for me. I've been presented with new opportunities to grow and evolve, that are in keeping with my intentions for my new life.
I have termed what I'm going through right now as "life rehab". I am journeying along a brand new (stony) path. Some parts of the path contain potholes that I have accidentally walked into, or those which have been unavoidable. It has rained hard along the way, and the puddles and mud that has collected each serve as a lesson for me. I have spent a long time at each of these potholes, puddles and muddy patches, reflecting and feeling the experience as deeply as I can, because they are lessons for me to learn from and use to grow and get better. I realise that I am mindfully going through my divorce, trying to experience it as fully as possible, embracing the pain, fears and anxieties, and then meeting them head (and heart) on.
This is not a time to shy away from the self. It is a time to allow the experiences to facilitate positive change. This week's solar eclipse, for me, has shown me how I have finally met the darkness within my life and begun the process of shifting it, to reveal the light, the source I have within me to shine brightly. This is my life rehabilitation: crafting my life as a new energy, and mindfully creating my new self into reality.
Negative experiences can teach us so much about ourselves. As horrific as some of these events can be, I feel that it is essential to be gentle and forgiving with ourselves during these processes. There is no point in self-sabotaging by internalising the negativity, turning it inwards on ourselves as further punishment; but to experience it, feel it, and then accept and release with love for ourselves, and gratitude for the experience, itself - here is a chance to make something different, no matter how small or large it is - because there is always a way to find a gem hidden in the dust.
As I reflect on this week, I can see the turning point - ironically, right after the eclipse! Suddenly I was experiencing what I have been working towards for a long time. Opportunities to shine are presenting themselves to me in several ways. Crucially, the change is because suddenly I believe in myself, and so do others. So here I stand, on my stony path. I have wiped away the mud and the tears: I am the gem in the dust. And people are beginning to see my true worth. The path ahead looks clear - because I have not yet walked along it. It is fresh, new, fertile ground, and I have seeds to plant along the way.
Friday, 3 October 2014
Today's news has included an article about a new pill for men and women who drink excessively, to help them reduce their alcohol intake. It has made the headlines and induced discussions in the media, with the slant of being a new "wonder-drug" that will help many people.
That's great, isn't it?
Yes, it is great,
I don't think there is anything wrong with taking medication. I am a nurse, so I spend a great deal of my time administering tablets, medicines, drips and antibiotics to help make the people I look after, better. This is fine.
I do also feel that as a society, we are easily swayed by medications to combat illness. We are conditioned to believe that a pill will make everything better, again. I find myself telling my children that "this medicine will make you feel better", or telling my patient, "this tablet will take the pain away", or "this antibiotic will kill the bug you have". Yes, they may well do, and invariably, that is what happens.
Why do we think that we are only capable of fixing ourselves with a pill? What is it about our fixation with medicines to cure all ills? As a nurse, if I have a patient who is agitated, anxious or confused, the planned route would be to speak to the doctor to get a tablet to calm the patient down.
With increasing frequency, I am using mindfulness techniques in my clinical practice to help my patients. I have had some surprising and successful results, from children to the elderly; from the scared and confused to the acutely ill, climbing-the-walls-with-pain patients.
For example, about a year ago I did a shift in A&E and was looking after a very scared, confused elderly lady. She did not know she was in hospital, and was desperate to go home. She had fallen at home and was very unsteady on her feet in the department, which was dangerous because she repeatedly got up from her chair to try to find her way into the cold, wet morning in her dressing gown and slippers. I sat down with her, did some breathing and focusing work with her, and then did a 5-minute meditation with her. As she relaxed in her chair, she settled, and then dozed off! In the time it would have taken me to either speak to a doctor about getting something to make her less agitated, or tried to get her to sit in her chair by telling her where she was, what had happened to her, and answered the repeating questions, thereby increasing her agitated state, I had simply taught her to relax her body and her mind for long enough for her to fall asleep.
It works! So much so, that I am taking this further, starting with teaching mindfulness and meditation to my colleagues and other staff at the trust I work in.
Coming back to the news today, though, makes me feel a slight disappointment. Not because I don't think the tablet will work, as it sounds very effective; but because it compounds the all-round belief that we can only be fixed with conventional medicine. It reinforces the increasing belief in our society that the NHS can be relied upon to fix everybody, and it increases the "clinical" perception that society's health can only be managed "clinically". We are generally losing our ability to see things more holistically, that there can be some other frameworks that support an individual to take better care of themselves, manage their existing conditions as a "bundle" of care rather than singularly; and that by teaching people to connect within to understand why, for example, they feel the need to drink 3 pints of beer a night, they might be able to reduce their intake and feel healthier as a result.